I don't know what it is but sometimes, after an intense period, when I go back to my regular life, I just feel damn bored.

Supposed to do some testing at work and - just my luck !!! - there is some stupid server migration going on the development servers, so I can't do a damn thing... how to be productive like this ???

Sigh... At least Cin is still talking to me from afar. She really is great and sometimes I wish I could just give her so much more. I must have been hurt or hurt myself a lot more than I know... In fact, I even feel a bit numb at times. Ah hell, I am just freakin bored and ridiculously frustrated.